Ingat tak?

Ingat tak masa first time you jejak kaki kat CBN for scrabble tournament, first time you kenal Shafeena masa tengah lawan match dengan dia. Time tuh kita tak kenal each other but Shafeena did introduce you to me coz korang dah exchange phone number. First time I dengar nama orang Alwi. Kitorg semua tergeliat lidah nak sebut nama you.

Ingat tak kita jumpa lagi during scrabble tournament kat Times Square. That was our first meeting. First time I terpandangkan you memang dah berkenan because you have that nerdy look. Physically, memang you have that features of my ideal guy. Not to mention, everyone agreed that you have a very kissable-sexy-red lips. Haha. Time tu, I and Shaf jadi runner. You suka kacau kitorg buat kerja. Main sepak-sepaklah. But I tau you more attracted to Shaf time tu. Demi bestfriend, I takder niat pun nak masuk line although I berkenan sangat dengan you tau. Time tu, you gentleman sangat tapi gaya you suka berlagak. And the tournament went for like 2 or 3 days kan? So we got to know each other quite well. But of course la you and Shaf lagi rapat.

One night, you and Shaf were texting each other. Tengah syok-syok cik abang, cik adik, you're my peter parker, I'm your mary kate and tup tap tup tap.. something stupid happened. Dah lama flirt ngan Shaf baru you nak bitau dia actually you're taken. Time tu plak, both Shaf and I bebal lagi pasal lovey-dovey. Kitorg terus label you as a liar and playboy. Gila naif kan? Haha. Gaduh-gaduh, Shaf tak nak berbaik. I jadi orang tengah. Haha. Last-last, I yang layan you flirty ngan i. Suka memang suka. Tapi tak fikir jauh pun because time tu memang I tak trust you langsung and let's just have you as my flirty partner.

Somehow, we both suka talk to each other. Lepas you set my number jadi your active5, laaaaagi rajin we text each other. I memang suka you. But I just keep it to myself cause time tu I believe that you were a playboy. Nothing more nothing less than that. Suddenly, Asyraf masuk line. I tried to give a hint to you, but you didn't get and give me your encouragement to be with him. Alahai... I memang pening gak nak choose you or him but I end up with him because I tak percayakan you lagi time tuh. Lagipun I was confused your relationship with Dewi. Macam chipsmore lak. Kejap ada kejap takder.

Then I couple with Asyraf and you stay with Dewi. But we're still attracted to each other. I simpan my feelings toward you senyap2 and pentingkan Asyraf. Throughout the year, you have been like a very good friend of mine. You baaaanyak tolong I, emotionally. You tempat I mengadu and whenever I have problems, I cari you. Yang pelik tuh, tak tau kenapa throughout the year tuh, we got some issues. You put me as your top priority but not Dewi. Susah nak deal with the situation and so I decided to stay away from you. Dekat berapa lama entah I biarkan je u. Ur message semua I tak balas. Finally, when I got bigger problems, I tercari-cari gak you. Glad you were always there for me.

Tup tap tup tap. I broke up with Asyraf because of his mother. Although a part of me memang sayang and naaaak dia balik. But damage is done. I tried to let myself cool first but then, you told me you attracted to Ann Yap. Like what?? I thought I'll be okay but no it's not. I tak mampu nak tunjuk I strong lagi da. I decided not to tipu myself lagi. I suka you dulu Alwi. Dah lama dulu before Asyraf ada pun. I should've let you know lama dulu. I let him go and give another chance for myself and you.

Alwi, you ingat tak the night we confessed to each other and proclaimed our love? I tau you menangis when heard me saying, "I memang betul-betul sayangkan you. More than a friend..."

Next weekend tu, we go on our very first date. We never go out one on one sepanjang friendship kita kan? Our first date was very classic kan? I love how it goes.

13 Januari 2008.

That's the beginning of everything. The miracle in our life.

Happy First Anniversary Alwi.
I'm glad you're the only man I love.
The one I desire for.
It's so true that we're still young and that is why we can't wait to grow more and more together!

I Love you.
With all my heart.