a Conflict on MySpace

This girl just added me on myspace recently. She happen to be a fan who obsesses over Gerard. She will post a bulletin with a title like, "Gerard Love Me", Gerard this, Gerard that. In her comment section, there are a bunch of people like her too. They said, "Gerard is mine only.", "Yeah, You are Gerard's wife" and stuff like that. I don't have to tell you what she put the caption on Gerard's photos. You knew it. BTW, she is 14. So, my first impression to her was she might love Gerard only and not MCR, and she probably didn't really know about MCR.

Last evening, i gave her a comment. I said, i feel annoy everytime see her bulletins. At the end of the comment, i said something like she being immature. I don't really remember why i said it. Maybe becoz of her obsession. But, i didn't really mean it. And i still wanna be friends with her at that time. My comment look like this.

Haha! You the one who suppose to be relax, gal! ...herm...hehe...okay...

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
You happen to be the kind of person who obsesses over bands and dream of marrying their members now. And i really hate that kind of person.

I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means.
I thought you kind of person who didn't appreciated the music. Expecially MCR's.

To be a joke and look, another line without a hook. I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
You should realized now, you suppose not to show that you really obsesses with Gerard. Many of their fans, expecially "our senior" who supporting them from beginning if see you, well...you know what they gonna do. Take a good hard look!

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all i had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.

Frankly speaking, that was my first impression. But now i see you as the second impression which much better than the first one. And, i didn't hate you that much. It just annoy me when seeing people say, "Gerard is mine" and stuff like that. Heh...sorry if i taking it seriously...but you will know what im trying to say when you know the senior fans and joined a big forum. Try to be more matured, will you? I just feel getting comfortable with you. =)...Night!

I love Mikey so much! But i didn't show it bcoz i don't want to share him with anyone else! *runs away*

The meaning are different bcoz i "sang" this song to her with my own meaning. At 2 am, she sent me a message. I just read the first line. From the first line, i can see how mad she is to me bcoz im calling her being immature. But, i didn't read the whole message bcoz it kinda long and i felt very sleepy at that time. Before i slept, i was thinking to apologize to her tomorrow for calling her being immature and wanna ask her if she would accept me as her friend.

Back from school, i quickly opened myspace inbox and im kinda suprised to saw a bunch of message from her. Finally, i read the whole message that she sent to me last night.

gosh!..u fucking sooo matured!..(if that's wut u want me to think)..come on now,Im only 14...if i say so i like Gerard...its my business.....u know wut,i'm soo mad at you..no offence..guess wut,i like mcr since like late 2003...i have know their songs..i memorise them...i gadoh wif my parents just to get their clothes and tie in the net..i tried too many things..I'm being considered as one of the *seniors*...hey girl...don cari pasal wif me if u feel 'something' coz I sent many 'gerard is mine!' bulletins...as i wrote..im only 14!!!...so young..If you're so matured u can think about that..IT IS A PUPPY LOVE!...come on...soon or later i'll get over with it..just pliz...PLIZZ....I'm begging you.. let me just continue loving gerard...(eventhough he doesnt know im exist)...

i'm trying to get close to you ...mcr's fans are all the same...don judge people by just the age..come...lets berbaik..okay..im sorry if all the 'Gerard is mine!' bulletins annoy you...pliz accept my apology and get it over now...

but i want to send many buletins about gerard..i'm cwazy about him..yeah of course..once when i looked at his face for the first time..i think...yeah,he's cute..but now..i dunno why..2005 is like the best ''get to know gerard'' time..i don want to miss it...pliz pliz pliz...Im a VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY sensitive girl...if u don believe me..just ask any of my frens here in myspace...i almost hurt my fren over a boy...so if i sent u comments that showed u that im a fresh man,loser,junior lopek,budak mentah or anything like that...well actually im not....but surely,im mentah* to gerard..but not to MCR...

I dont want to send this message at your comment box coz...i don want you and I to get bad names...


I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me

Demolition lovers..mcr

bye bye fren..

These are my reaction when i read it. Mad of course. But not as she did.
1. I know. I don't have a right to interfere people's life and obsession. I suppose to show some respect to her and i did.

2. She knew MCR in late 2003?!..Im highly doubt about that. In Malaysia, i don't think so people knew MCR in late 2003. I mean, MCR getting well-known in Malaysia after Im Not Okay and Helena released which are in this year. I think she is lying bcoz MCR's first album, I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love is not exist in Malaysia. If she knew MCR in late 2003 she must knew other bands too. She must atleast, put other bands name on her page. If she really into underground's music. That's what im trying to say. Only people into underground's music will knew about MCR when their first album was released.. And she didn't seems to be one of them. Not only that, i checked her comments from the last page and yeah. The prove is there. She's totally lying. Her first comment was posted in late 2004 and NONE of her friends write any words about MCR. Not even 'Gerard'. Then, the first comment says about MCR was posted in August 2005. See?! That's when Helena video clip was released! Plus, her friends even comment bout her background. Yeah! She put Gerard wallpaper as a background. It's Gerard. Not My Chemical Romance!

3. Im not really believe her about "2005 is like the best ''get to know gerard'' time". If she has knew MCR for a long time, she must can handle the obsession thing now.

4. She fought with her parents just to get MCR's stuff online and tried many things?! Man! That's so pathetic. She sounds to be proud of it.

5. Aww..you don't get what i mean by senior fans isn't it? I mean by "Senior" not the one who support them from beginning. I mean, the older people. The more mature. Don't care whether they new or older fans but the way they thinking that i want you to know. You're still a little kid, ok? Just like me. But, atleast...im not like you..

6. "i'm trying to get close to you"?! She never send me a message. So, since when we're trying to get close to each other?

7. "pliz accept my apology and get it over now"..i accepted her apology but she sounds not too sincere.

In the next message, which she sent 10 min after the first message and im in my bed at that time. She said, she will not forgive me if i didn't apologize to her. And she prays something will happen to me. I don't know whether it is something bad or something good. But, i know, she trying to say 'something bad'. Hey! If you want to prays something bad for someone, Allah will not grant it, ok? Or maybe you the one who will get it! You better watch that! In next message, she wrote like this.

guess what..i nak pegi concert live die kat manhattan nnt..i'll show some pics nanti..i letak kat myspace...tgkla nanti ye..byebye..u takleh ikot..bitch!!

BITCH??! What the hell is that!? But, this time i didn't believe her words! You must be rich enough to go there right? MCR live in Manhattan? When? Next year? Hell no! Right now, MCR are touring Europe. And there are no any news (so far) that they will perform in Manhattan. If im not mistaken, Mikey and Gerard said, they will start recording in this winter. Heh? So, who is the loser right now? Not only that, how come her parents can let her go to watch a gig in Manhattan but having a fight with her when to buy MCR's stuff online? It doesn't make sense to me. But she dare enough to say, she will show the pictures. Oh yeah! We'll see.

Right now, she must thinking that im such a coward for not reply all her crap messages. HEY!! HELLO!! Im not a chicken!! Atleast not with you!! It's just pointless you know! And wasting my time for sure. I don't know who the hell are you and i'll not lost anything if i don' be friends with you! One more thing. If im such a coward, i'll not write these things on my blog. I know, eventually you will read this someday.

Then, i checked her page. She deleted all my comments on her page and her comments on my page. She even deleted me from her friends list. I just feel so bad bcoz she didn't give me a chance to explain it. If she didn't called me Bitch, of course i already apologized to her.

What i can say about this girl is she is so damn pathetic. Immature. Impatient. Teenies. Liar. Show off.

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe