When I speak, no one would understand me

Because...

I speak too fast.

I sounds mumbling when I'm speaking.

I don't like the sound of my voice.

I sound like a child.

People find it's hard to listen to me.

Seriously, only people who often talk to me is able to understand my speech. Most of them are my family, classmates, tuition mates and best friends. It's really pathetic you know. I speak too fast. That's for sure. Sometimes I would say, it's a habit. But I don't think so it's a habit because there's no way to kick this habit. I can't control the speed of speaking. It's something involuntary. So I would just say, it's a gift. Haha.. (I made it up just to make me feel better) ;)

The rate of speed is greater when I'm excited or in a hyper mood. People have difficulty understanding me. They ask me to repeat what I've said. When they ask me to repeat for many times of course it's going to ruin my mood. If that's happening, I usually just finish my speech quickly and will stop talking. Sometimes it does embarrassing. I guess I have to live with it. *sigh*

When my bestie is around, I don't really give a damn about it. If I feel like "story-telling" with them, I just let myself talking but when someone asks me to repeat, there goes the "uses" of my bestie, they usually will repeat or "translate" for me. I really need them as my "translator". =) I also found myself getting sensitive with this thing lately. Like.. yesterday, I went out with Asyraf and his buddies. I remember his best friend asking me something and so I answered it but he didn't get it. Even Asyraf himself. [It's just two farking words. =( ] But it's funny how Asyraf would get annoyed just because he didn't get what I'm saying. HA HA. The next thing I remember, I usually will get emo with it. LOL. =P

The next thing I dislike the most is...
MY DAMN VOICE!!
Guess what? I'm seventeen but my voice sounds like a seven years old girl. Sounds nothing like a seventeen years old girl. Wanna know how my voice like? Go watch 'Doraemon' on this weekends. Listen to the seiyuu voices, and that's how exactly my voice like.

Doraemon: Nobita, Nobita. Awak dah siap kerja sekolah belum?
Nobita: Belum lah Doraemon. Kejap lagi saya buatlah. Saya nak pergi main baseball dulu.

I just wrote it for you so that you can imagine their voices clearly now. =P

*sigh*

My voice seriously sounds immature and childish. I laughing out loud when I gotta hear my voice on the phone for the first time. I don't know how he managed to listen to every bit of my voice when we are on the phone. Even myself don't like it. It sounds.. eeuuuw...~! Haha.. but yeah, some people said my voice is cute. But still, I don't like it.. Wahsaii.. Wanna know something funny? I still remember myself calling 'Pizza Hut' to order the food and after a while, guess what operator said to me? She said,
"Could you pass the phone to your parents or any adults for the confirmation?"

T_____T

Can you imagine now how childish my voice sounds like?

But no matter how I dislike the sound of my voice, how fast when I'm speaking, I will always grateful for having such a lovely voice. ^^