The Break Up?

- This time it's about my personal feelings. Read or leave. TQ.

Oh well... I'm not going to talk about The Break-Up movie okayh? Haha. Of course it's gotta do with me.. but hey-hey.. I'm not breaking up with my boyfriend okayh? Haha.. Actually I just found out that I'm a bit weird lately. Guess what? I don't know why I can imagine myself breaking up with him..? ... and what would happen to me if I break up with him? Without him.. in my life??

..... -_-"

That's totally weird! I don't know how this thing can crossed my mind. It's not like we're having a big fight or I'm unhappy with my relationship. Haha.. I'm weird~! Maybe I just started to be prepared. ;P Dehh.. I'm such a bad girlfriend to think like that. But when I think of it, I'm wondering what will happen to me not to be with him anymore? What I'm gonna do without him in my life? It would be ten times sucks I suppose.. would I get over him quickly or cry on my bed everyday and feel so weak without him? Then I compared himself with my ex. He's my first couple and my time with him was pretty short and thank god, I didn't have a chance to love him so much. Why? Because he's ten times sucks than anyone else. Haha.. I never thought I would fall for some kind of jerk. And because of that it's pretty easy for me to get over him and move on with my life. One thing I proud of myself is I didn't even shed a single tear for him when asking for a break from him.. Oh well, he didn't even deserved it.

After broke up with him, I enjoyed my life so much. I flirted with every guys and that's when someone walked into my life. It was sudden. That is Asyraf. I thought he was just fooling around with me. I never thought he would have a feelings for me. I remember when he said, "I love you" to me for the first time. I was like,
"Err.. whateverrr! We're just flirting around aite?"
and ignored what he said. Haha.. It took some time for me to figured out my feelings towards him. So far, he treats me very nice.. Obviously, ten times nicer than my ex could do. Hahaha. I am happy with him and it's been quite some time we have been together and no way he would let me go. Neither me.. =)

And that's what makes me afraid to think about us after the relationship.. but I don't think so I'd get over him quickly like I did to my ex though. The more I think about it, the harder it gets to not-to-forget-him. *sigh*

Oh well.. SPM first!