Counting days

Instead, counting down the days until I sit for my coming diagnostic exam, I'm also counting the days and waiting patiently till I can meet him again. I miss him terribly..

We hadn't seen for more than a month. The last time we saw each other was a few days ago just for 2 fucking hours??! Actually, it was my fault for coming late and I don't know why that day I felt so unlucky.

Didn't meet for 1 Month = 2 hours meeting??

Waaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! T_T

BENCI GILER! Dah la on the way nak pegi Mid Valley tuh, hujan lebat nak mampus. And great, aku pulak pakai white tops. Selamat tak basah giler.

And yesterday, he told me he can't make it to my school carnival because he got his driving class or something on that day. I thought, after the school carnival is over, I wanna go to Tasik Titiwangsa. I wanna take a ride of the Ferris Wheel with him or at least have a walk and whatsoever.

DAYM! DAYM!

And I don't think so we can meet during weekdays because I've got curriculum activities after school and he probably got his driving class or have to look after his little sister at home. I told him to bring his sister but he doesn't want. I also had enough every time seeing him, I'm wearing my school T-shirt, my school track bottom, carrying my school bag and the worst part is wearing my school shoes! I don't like to see the school students dating and wearing their school stuff. So why should I be like one of them?

URGH!

Then, the next two weeks he will go back to college and yeahh.. I'm starting to busy with my study. What I'm afraid the most is, I know I'm going to get over the feelings but then once I'm started to get used with it.. things going to change. Probably not..

x(

I fucking hate it when my feelings started to mixed up!

P.S: Ahaa.. you have wasted your time by reading this crap.
P.S.S: I'm hoping he will read this post..
P.S.S.S: I miss you soooo bad! x(