For those who are concerned only

I've been asked by someone.
"Anis, kau tak rasa kau beriya-iya workout ni semata-mata untuk Alwi ker? Kau nak kurus sebab dia kan? Aku tengok kau nih exercise tiap-tiap hari, tak kurus-kurus pun."

You see, I started to do some workout during the end of the last semester. I do jogging and exercise for almost everyday. And now, I'm starting to like cycling. I just got a mountain bike from my sister and it is cool. I'll favor cycling very soon.

BUT, it wasn't Alwi who forced me to do workout and says, "Dear, you're putting alot of weight since the last time. I don't like it. Malulah nak jalan dengan you nanti. I want you to exercise and get rid of that flabby tummy for me please."

He never said such thing. I have a problem with myself and its bugging me since I was in form 2. I'm too conscious about my body. It causes me to have low self-esteem. I kept complaining to him and never do anything about it. I made a first move when he said,

"You are not comfortable with your body right? Why don't you do something that can make you feel comfortable with it? All I want is for you to accept your own body and be comfortable with it. You can do anything that is healthy. I forbid you from throwing back your food, not eating all day long and be an anorexic. Have a proper meal 3 times a day, at least."

Since he's an athlete, he influenced me a lot. He loves working out and very passionate in running and extreme mountain biking. He just shared his experiences with me and I became interested in the things that he does. Yea, he is my fitness motivator.

I'm also lucky to have supportive friends at college. They're slim and their bodies are surely in shape but they really don't mind to exercise together with me because they wanted to stay fit and feel healthy. After a while, I have changed my perspective towards exercise. I'm no longer do regular exercise to lose weight but because I'm starting to like it. I don't care how many pounds I have lost because the most important thing is I am fitting myself into my own body and the feeling of being uncomfortable with my body is fading away.