You caused my bestfriend to have a disease

Depression.

I'm sorry to write about this mate. I know you're not going to like this but you NEED TO BE HEARD.

I never thought the feelings that we went through a couple of week ago could lead to depression. Lucky me, I solved my problems emotionally and my partner listened to me without criticizing. That's what men should do instead giving out explanations, be defensive because you thought that you have done nothing wrong and we, girls, shouldn't be upset. We know our limits. We know when we overreacting. Just lend your ears without your mouth do the talking, would you?

I'm feeling you mate. I've got to speak up, albeit lessened, the pain is still there. I don't think so my emotional health has recovered perfectly. I'm still able to define myself fine but I'm emotionally fragile. Just now I called him and asked him why he didn't text me. I've been waiting the whole evening for his text, and how hurtful it is when he said, "I don't text you because I don't feel like I want to. I have my friends come over my house. Would it be fine if I don't text you tonight?"

*sigh*

It is OKAY with me if you want to spend your time with your buddies but would you at least let me know first? And it is NOT OKAY when you have planned to do something and you don't inform it to us by yourself, we have to asked you first instead. It's not like we're gonna restrict you. I'm sick here.. Couldn't you at least show some care or pretend to be one?

Moreover, you can't expect us to be happy when with our friends. It is different. When you have problem with us, you run away from it, do the things that you like, hangout with your buddies, and you prefer to forget about us. Unlike girls, no matter how joyful we are when with our friends, the resentment and rejection inside us are growing stronger if we are unable to communicate with you emotionally. We still looking forward to talk with you although we already know how would you react. Thus, go out and enjoy with friends can't help in reducing our distress. We would have talked about it million times to our best friend, but they can't fix the damage. We want you. We need to be distracted at the same time.

The worst thing that may come with this situation is that, we would develop an urge feeling to contact back and tell the problem to our first love. Yea, Mr. Ex-boyfriend you may called. They were a part of us back then and we assumed that they would understand our feelings. Usually.. they do and they will say something nice that can soothe our mixed feelings.

And mate, we really need to move on.

I better stop now.